So finally after 'winter' real spring started in Brno. Even first day was properly sunny and warm. Now i cannot wait till it's will be possible to hide winter shoes and jacked deep deep in the closet and take out dresses and light jackets. Maybe even it'll be time for ice cream soon.
One thing in my mind right now is possible trip home. My health doesn't improve much after my stunt in hospital and it scares me that Czech doctors even refuses to listen what i'm saying. One i visited even created some diagnosis without even rising her eyes to me. So i'm thinking that maybe i should visit my homeland just to get better. It helped in the winter when i had some two months lasting virus no antibiotics could have helped. Docs says i'm just stressed.
Main reason of stress - my ex. Brno is quite small town and it's hard to avoid people especially if they are extremely clingy and has no friends. So my ex clings to mine. As result my social life become quite limited but also i realized who my true friends are. It's the one who supports me and is there not just for drinking company. Friendship is hard thing to maintain without effort.
In Brno is quite easy to find company to hangout but real friends are not so easy to find. Somehow only hospital brought me to that realization when i was dying from boredom and thinking a lot.
Right now i'm dealing with my addiction to buy new lip glosses and lipsticks. I got it almost all my life (well, at least since my teen years) and after i started working and getting some money it got worse. Now i have collection enough for 20 females. Worst thing is that i get several colors of each type i like. I have 4 of maybelline colorsensational cream glosses (one of my favourites), 4 of apocalips, and about 10 different colors of Essence lipsticks, both usual and longlasting (couldn't resist, they are very good and cheap). Not to count different random balms (i believe i could use different balm each day for few weeks). That's what poverty in childhood did to my spending habits... At least i overcome earrings buying mania. After my stunt in hospital spending money on stuff i don't need get a bit worse as i simply had some money saved. I don't spend so much nowadays as there's not much going on in town.
Actually i try to avoid town center because of Ukrainian mania. Since there;s quite a lot of ukrainian emigrants in Brno there's protests going on in Namesti svobody almost every few days. I try to stay away from that craziness as there's two topics to avoid - religion and politics - in order not to loose friends / make enemies. Although i spent some time explaining to friend that Crimea is historically Russian and referendum is not occupation. I think he processed it quite well, being smart guy. Others might not be.
